Unbearable Pain: My Struggle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation sprang behind my right eye. Then came quick stabs, similar to electric shocks. As each class came and went, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on agony in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often start with intense discomfort behind one eye that lasts up to several hours.

About one in 1,000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually begin with sudden, excruciating pain around a single eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another found 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the failure to plan life around erratic pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient medical records suggest unusual remedies for what some observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by global medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery that delivers blood to the head. Leading specialists in treating the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He works by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

National guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which apparently soothes the bouts of some individuals.

But leading specialists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are managed with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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